Life hates me :D

So i hate when for some reason you like someone you know you can never have. It's basically the story of my life. Would i even like them if they were an obtainable goal? Maybe that's a bad way to phrase it because it makes them sound like an object. But i think you get the point. Maybe people just like to want things they can't have. I don't know. asdfghjkl;'
It's so frustrating D:
Oh and sorry for posting so late, i haven't been feeling as inspired to write lately. But tonight i do. Because I'm so frustrated about this. But i don't even know what to say. I haven't even talked to this person before. I should probably start with that. But how do you just start talking to someone you don't know? Can you really plan out a friendship? Isn't it something that just happens on it's own? I can't remember how i became friends with most of my friends now. Is it wrong to befriend someone just so you can try to date them? Well I'm going to try anyways.
Blahhh, i hate my life sometimes haha.

Anywaysss,
This blog is supposed to be about photography.
So me and Coco were going to do a photoshoot but long story short we ended up at the post office not her house. Fail
But i did get this picture. And it's not posed so i like it.
I want to do more pictures where people are acting naturally. Not posing just because they see a camera pointing at them. Everyone stops what their doing when they see the lens pointing their direction and try to smile or cover their face. It's really annoying. I wish people would just be themselves.

Ok, so i'm going to bed now. I keep thinking it's Friday....It's not. Like i said, life hates me.
Goodnight everyoneeee

My greatest fear

So i haven't blogged in awhile. Like over a week =[

Ummm so yeah.
This weekend was Halloween. And i dressed up as a scene kid. (Here i am)

Even though this was originally a joke, i kindof like how i looked. So i've decided to start straightening my hair, but i can't seem to get it as good as when other people straighten it. Also, i want a legit lip piercing. Really bad. Alot of people think i should do it, other people are like, umm wtf?
But i want to and that's what's important. I'm not sure if my mom will let me do it, but i know that she might.

Anyways, i feel really sick today. Since i woke up it's been pretty bad. After school me and Montse went to the mall and applied for jobs everywhere we could :D And then i bought some clothes at PacSun. Ummm yeah. I ate Taco Bell. Bad decision. I feel even worse. No surprise there. I'm such a moron.

So on a different note. The name of this post is "My greatest fear". And i think it's pretty interesting, because I'm guessing no one else in the world has this.
Ok, it starts like this.
I'm alone in the middle of the ocean treading water. There's no land in site and no where to go. Small waves crash over my mouth giving me the feeling on drowning. Underneath me i feel the depth of the ocean and it's vastness. I imagine all the creepy creatures that must live below and how huge the ocean is in comparison to me. Suddenly i see a huge shadow in the water below me. I try frantically to swim away but everything looks the same and i can't tell which way i'm swimming. The shadow is getting bigger and coming closer. I'm terrified, lost, helpless, and confused. Suddenly the water behind starts to rise as a humongous creature starts to emerge from the bottom of the ocean. I stare in shock and fear. It's exactly what i was hoping it wasn't. It's my greatest fear.

SNOOP DOG RIDING A WHALE.

This might sound rediculous. But that is literally the worst image i can conjure up. I can imagine Snoop Dog's narrow disgusting face on the very top of the horror that is the whale. Ughhh. I don't even know what they would do to me. Would the whale eat me? Would Snoop Dog shoot me? Or would i just kill myself from the sight of it? Or perhaps become paralyzed and sink to the bottom of the ocean?
Absolutely awful. The worst thing i can imagine. Seriously. It makes me uncomfortable just putting the pictures on here.
(I obviously didn't take them btw)
Sorry for the lack of photography this week. I'll be taking more death scenes soon.

Today is Tuesday!

Today is tuesday and i've declared it random fact day!
Tuesday is after all, the worst day of the week, might as well try to make it interesting.

Anyways, here are 10 facts about me that you might not have known

10. I have been a vegetarian since birth. I have no plans on ever eating meat. It doesn't appeal to me at all. And no i'm not allergic (people ask the funniest questions)

9. My middle name is Sky. That's why I'm going by Javin Sky Photography. My real last name is Gulbin. And my other middle name is Harrington (my dad's last name.)

8. I've lived in 4 states and have been in almost all 50 but have never left the country.

7. I played the Sims 3 with Coco today. Then we ate ravioli with my parents.

6. I play the clarinet in marching band. Here's a link to our show. I'm the awkwardly tall one that leads onto the 50 in the beginning ;)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MtijSbL6a2U

5. My favorite food is probably pizza. I could eat it for the rest of my life

4. As of this weekend i officially have Asian relatives. WOO!

3. Speaking of such things, i wish i was latino. I think i would be so much more attractive.

2. Today some girl i didn't know came up to me and said my photos were amazing. It made my day even though i haven't been feeling good :D

1. Two of my aunts are the same age as me and they are more like sisters. I love them to death. They were also the ones (along with my cousin) who were models for my rez photoshoot over the summer.

And now since it's random fact day, i think it would be fitting to present a random photo i took. It's my newest one so check it out!

And thank you to everyone who reads this. It means alot!

Oh and look at my flickr please! http://www.flickr.com/photos/javinhg/

Stop and Think

There are 3 things i realized i hate today.

1. Restarting my computer because it takes forever and i've had to do it 7 times in the past 2 days.

2. When people change their default on facebook or myspace and don't give the photographer credit. Then everyone always comments on how good they look and don't mention the person who took it.

3. When people lie for no reason. For some reason society seems to have produced so many people that lie about everything just because they can. Or people that talk shit and don't own up to it.

Anyways, i think this picture is fairly relevant to number 3, because you can always tell someone's true motives in the eyes.