Life hates me :D

So i hate when for some reason you like someone you know you can never have. It's basically the story of my life. Would i even like them if they were an obtainable goal? Maybe that's a bad way to phrase it because it makes them sound like an object. But i think you get the point. Maybe people just like to want things they can't have. I don't know. asdfghjkl;'
It's so frustrating D:
Oh and sorry for posting so late, i haven't been feeling as inspired to write lately. But tonight i do. Because I'm so frustrated about this. But i don't even know what to say. I haven't even talked to this person before. I should probably start with that. But how do you just start talking to someone you don't know? Can you really plan out a friendship? Isn't it something that just happens on it's own? I can't remember how i became friends with most of my friends now. Is it wrong to befriend someone just so you can try to date them? Well I'm going to try anyways.
Blahhh, i hate my life sometimes haha.

Anywaysss,
This blog is supposed to be about photography.
So me and Coco were going to do a photoshoot but long story short we ended up at the post office not her house. Fail
But i did get this picture. And it's not posed so i like it.
I want to do more pictures where people are acting naturally. Not posing just because they see a camera pointing at them. Everyone stops what their doing when they see the lens pointing their direction and try to smile or cover their face. It's really annoying. I wish people would just be themselves.

Ok, so i'm going to bed now. I keep thinking it's Friday....It's not. Like i said, life hates me.
Goodnight everyoneeee

My greatest fear

So i haven't blogged in awhile. Like over a week =[

Ummm so yeah.
This weekend was Halloween. And i dressed up as a scene kid. (Here i am)

Even though this was originally a joke, i kindof like how i looked. So i've decided to start straightening my hair, but i can't seem to get it as good as when other people straighten it. Also, i want a legit lip piercing. Really bad. Alot of people think i should do it, other people are like, umm wtf?
But i want to and that's what's important. I'm not sure if my mom will let me do it, but i know that she might.

Anyways, i feel really sick today. Since i woke up it's been pretty bad. After school me and Montse went to the mall and applied for jobs everywhere we could :D And then i bought some clothes at PacSun. Ummm yeah. I ate Taco Bell. Bad decision. I feel even worse. No surprise there. I'm such a moron.

So on a different note. The name of this post is "My greatest fear". And i think it's pretty interesting, because I'm guessing no one else in the world has this.
Ok, it starts like this.
I'm alone in the middle of the ocean treading water. There's no land in site and no where to go. Small waves crash over my mouth giving me the feeling on drowning. Underneath me i feel the depth of the ocean and it's vastness. I imagine all the creepy creatures that must live below and how huge the ocean is in comparison to me. Suddenly i see a huge shadow in the water below me. I try frantically to swim away but everything looks the same and i can't tell which way i'm swimming. The shadow is getting bigger and coming closer. I'm terrified, lost, helpless, and confused. Suddenly the water behind starts to rise as a humongous creature starts to emerge from the bottom of the ocean. I stare in shock and fear. It's exactly what i was hoping it wasn't. It's my greatest fear.

SNOOP DOG RIDING A WHALE.

This might sound rediculous. But that is literally the worst image i can conjure up. I can imagine Snoop Dog's narrow disgusting face on the very top of the horror that is the whale. Ughhh. I don't even know what they would do to me. Would the whale eat me? Would Snoop Dog shoot me? Or would i just kill myself from the sight of it? Or perhaps become paralyzed and sink to the bottom of the ocean?
Absolutely awful. The worst thing i can imagine. Seriously. It makes me uncomfortable just putting the pictures on here.
(I obviously didn't take them btw)
Sorry for the lack of photography this week. I'll be taking more death scenes soon.

Today is Tuesday!

Today is tuesday and i've declared it random fact day!
Tuesday is after all, the worst day of the week, might as well try to make it interesting.

Anyways, here are 10 facts about me that you might not have known

10. I have been a vegetarian since birth. I have no plans on ever eating meat. It doesn't appeal to me at all. And no i'm not allergic (people ask the funniest questions)

9. My middle name is Sky. That's why I'm going by Javin Sky Photography. My real last name is Gulbin. And my other middle name is Harrington (my dad's last name.)

8. I've lived in 4 states and have been in almost all 50 but have never left the country.

7. I played the Sims 3 with Coco today. Then we ate ravioli with my parents.

6. I play the clarinet in marching band. Here's a link to our show. I'm the awkwardly tall one that leads onto the 50 in the beginning ;)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MtijSbL6a2U

5. My favorite food is probably pizza. I could eat it for the rest of my life

4. As of this weekend i officially have Asian relatives. WOO!

3. Speaking of such things, i wish i was latino. I think i would be so much more attractive.

2. Today some girl i didn't know came up to me and said my photos were amazing. It made my day even though i haven't been feeling good :D

1. Two of my aunts are the same age as me and they are more like sisters. I love them to death. They were also the ones (along with my cousin) who were models for my rez photoshoot over the summer.

And now since it's random fact day, i think it would be fitting to present a random photo i took. It's my newest one so check it out!

And thank you to everyone who reads this. It means alot!

Oh and look at my flickr please! http://www.flickr.com/photos/javinhg/

Stop and Think

There are 3 things i realized i hate today.

1. Restarting my computer because it takes forever and i've had to do it 7 times in the past 2 days.

2. When people change their default on facebook or myspace and don't give the photographer credit. Then everyone always comments on how good they look and don't mention the person who took it.

3. When people lie for no reason. For some reason society seems to have produced so many people that lie about everything just because they can. Or people that talk shit and don't own up to it.

Anyways, i think this picture is fairly relevant to number 3, because you can always tell someone's true motives in the eyes.

Ranting and Raving :D

Today i can't decide whether it was a good day or a bad day. I woke up exhausted and i was feeling that weird rush of energy all day that you get when your sleep deprived which of course has led to me crashing now. So basically i was jittery and tired at the same time all day. I also didn't want to go to school because i had a dream that i didn't go to school today and in THAT dream i had a dream about not going to school.
ANYWAYS,
I had film photography today which i was really excited about because i had two rolls of film to develop from New York this weekend. That is literally what got me out of bed. But ofcourse i managed to forget the first roll at home which was definitely the better one. Also my prints from last class got ruined because no one bothered to squeegee mine even though people went to squeegee their own and i was under the impression whoever goes to do it does all of them, because that's what i was doing. Apparently not.

But the worst part of my day revolved around this particular photograph.
I would like to make this clear,
I TOOK THIS.
Apparently people are claiming that this picture is "too good to be mine" and that you can't possibly get a picture like that from cigarette smoke. This is true, you can't. It's photoshopped. It does after all spell out the word "Smoke". Normally that doesn't happen when smoking a cigarette. Further more, it was taken against a black door outside the highschool for people who still don't beleive it's mine. Also, to prove my point, here is the original photo. Clearly different. Strangely enough this seems to be one of my most popular photographs even though i actually just did it because i was bored. How ironic. I was also accused of the photograph at the bottom of this page, (the girls jumping off the wall), to also not be mine. On the left is my aunt Eileen, and on the right is my cousin Colleen. Trust me, it's mine.


So after that whole incident i was in a bad mood and complaining to everyone and felt like i was going to punch someone. (I'm not a violent person at all by the way. I'm actually very nice.) But i was very annoyed with everyone and everything, but luckily my day was saved after school when talking to my friends April and Em. We all had an amazing rant about life and were able to vent about everything. If i hadn't talked to them this post probably would have been alot longer :)
Anyways, that's muh day. Hope you enjoyed hearing me complain :D

P.s. I will NEVER post a photo on here that isn't mine unless i specifically say so!

First post :)

Hey everyone who might be reading this,
So clearly i just made a blog; my first blog, so i'm not quite sure what to write about. So i might as well start with the basics
My name is Javin (Pronounced JAY-VIN) and i love photography. I only got into it about a year ago but i already know that it's what i want to do with my life. I'm a Junior in high school so pretty soon i will start applying to art schools which I'm really excited about. I mainly like pictures of people, and in ways that are unusual. (Like the picture to the right)
Studio portraits that are straight ahead bore me and i generally try to be more creative than that.
And most of the pictures i post on here will be on my Flickr http://www.flickr.com/photos/javinhg/
So any comments and views are greatly appreciated.

My current project for school is a crime scenes type of thing which i started around last week. So here are a few shots for that over here. My mom thinks i should shoot something more positive. And now my step-grandma thinks im fixated on death. But i think that there is beauty in death and that it's an interesting concept.
That's why i'm shooting these pictures not because i'm a creep. I'd like to make that clear. And besides my photo teacher likes them :) And i suppose that's part of photography, not everyone is going to like your work and not everyone is going to like your ideas. But i'm okay with that, it's just part of the job ;)

Oh and in photography unrelated news, my marching band went to Micca Finals today which is a band compititon and we got a silver medal, even though we all know we deserved gold. I play the clarinet by the way, and yeah, i'll post a link to that whenever i find a video of it.
That's it for today,
going to eat soy mac and cheese and watch 30 rock with my mom. (i'm really cool obviously)